I'm 34 years old. I have been a mother for 16 years. For the past 9 years that is ALL I have been. I am tired of not being known for anything. I don't have a "me" anymore. I run my own business but, when people see me that's not what they see. I'm Kaylee, Mo, and Sunny's mom. I'm "Ms.Katie".
The last time I did something that I wanted to do was 2013. I used to enjoy running mud runs. I did them 2 years in a row before the one I was doing stopped offering them near me {I think they might have even gone out of business}. I have tried to be my own person many times and I've always failed. I'm tired of failing.
I finished this bike ride and I am SUPER proud of myself. I like training for something, I enjoy finding something that makes me, me. So, what's next? The worst part of completing any big task is not knowing what to do next. I kind of feel empty and pointless. It felt good finally getting back to being a real person again, I can't quit.
The thought of becoming a new person is really exciting. I'm excited to take this journey. I have a few ideas of who I want to be. A couple things I want to focus my attention on. Hopefully you'll stick around and find out what I decide to do.
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